Bohemian Portraits (in Nature) 002

Just a favorite motif of mine... I like natures, and tress, and all that... since I was in middle school, my nickname was "Pocahontas". Some folks still actually call me that! ^,^

Bohemian Portraits 001

At least some of these look a lil' bit better...
































I still think it's not my best work tho'...

Robed Bohemian 002

I admit, it's probably not my best work... but, at least it's something...

Robed Bohemian 001

Depending upon whatever your definition of "kimono" means I guess you COULD say: Yeah, that's a Kimono.

From my limited understanding of whatever "kimono" was supposed to mean,is that it means "clothes" or "clothing" in Japanese... but, despite my having watched hundreds of hours of Japanese films, movies, TV shows, I don't actually speak the language...

So..... I just call these my robes, because i have 2 of them. they are both vintage 2000/2001 robes made by sexy designer "Frederick's of Hollywood" which usually makes lingerie & sleepwear, among other things. And, I believe this was among the VERY first thing I'd EVER purchased with a bank card online, when online shopping was often considered risky, since the 1990s.

I used a secured service called "Yahoo Wallet" which encrypted your online translations. believe it or not, my first robe I purchased was the magenta/hot-pink robe, even tho' I hate pink... but, I felt the colors went well together, on the graphic printing. I also wrote my VERY first online customer review with them, and the vender was very professional, friendly, and polite, and even wrote me a personal thank you note/e-mail. So, i went back and purchased the 2nd, robe, which is the cyan/electric blue one.

Both robes were"Made In USA". Can u believe that? I still wear them all the time, and the quality is STILL excellent! Never fell apart, never wore out!

They don't make 'em like they used to....

Anyways, I'd been wanting to do something with my robes... but, I just can;t get down to play artsy-fartsy photography stuff with my friends in PA, yet... So many set-backs in my plans. Much to my frustration!

So, I desided to try a Bohemian flavor here... I'm on a bohemian theme kick still...

Prep

I still enjoy, and would like to do more, pirate cosplay stuff... But, recently I've been on a Bohemian theme kick for a while...

It's been rather cold as well... And I still am experiencing delays in my plans, for quite a number of things. (If you only knew.)

Here are some of the test frames from when I started my photoshoot last week.

Yes, my hair is very thin, and my nails are very soft, brittle, and often bleed...

So, if you want to be judgmental of me, keep that in mind... I'm also not 20-something anymore.





I'm aware that these are not so great... I had already made several attempts all month in May, and constantly being screwed when big clouds rolled in the moment i put my eye to the view finder. VERY frustrating!
But, by the time I finally had a good enough day to shoot, it was VERY COLD, and i just wasn;t feeling it....

C'est la vie

Always frustrating, when your feeling the inspiration and flow, and your work gets interrupted by weather, sudden unexpected tragedy, all hell breaking loose, and so on....

It has been an incredibly stressful year, and it seems each year is even weirder, and worse, than the previous one....

My Foodstamps keep ending up having my applications go missing, and a long list of other things... (long story)

So, my nutrition hasn't been very good... just whatever's left at the local food bank, which isn't much compared to 2013... and more people end up going there than ever...

Aside from that, people frequently judge me as some sort of freak, or insane... when I'm constantly trying to help people, and keep people together...

So...... if it looks like my hair is incredibly thin, and balding, that's because it is... I also suffer from psoriasis. Emphasis on the suffering part.... It is an ugly, hideous skin ailment caused by extreme mental & emotional stress. It is incredibly difficult to treat when you have it on your scalp... I've had it before on other parts of my head, neck, face, and elbows... but treating it with prescription steroids would actually work, and drinking saffron tea also would work... but, once it moved to my scalp around 2010/2011 and became increasingly painful by 2012 it was nearly incurable... but would sometimes vanish & reappear... Right now, I am treating it with Moroccan argan oil, which is THE ONLY thing that actually helps it.

For whatever reason, people seem to think that having rational, and cognitive thoughts, contemplating things logically, and asking legitimate questions about EVERYTHING, makes me insane, and the fact that I do creative things makes me a freak of nature REALLY bothers me... It bothers me that people have an expectation of lies, going through the motions, and speaking ONLY what they want to hear, and being honest, truthful, and dare I say "true to ones self" has made me a constant target for a great deal of many individuals & groups...

Well, I don't care!

The truth is, I'm an artist AND an intellectual, despite both groups HATING each other, and those outside of those circles HATING me DOUBLE for being born of both brain hemispheres.

And, part of that truth is that I am in my mid 30s... I'm a Mom, I do creative things, technological things, human things, and more... and yes, that includes wearing makeup, making things, writing things, expressing things... I'm not ACTUALLY as beautiful as this... it's JUST art.

I'm actually just a plain woman, and no one even likes me much in the state I'm a legal resident of... There are plenty of things I'd RATHER be doing, but, I'm NOT middle class anymore... so, I currently cannot.

Sometimes doing the right thing(s) doesn't make you a well liked person...

I may be broke, living in poverty, and afflicted with medical problems (a list of them) but, I'm STILL a human being...

So... I don't have much, I'm broke, I barely have anything, and I'm grateful what I do have... But, what I don't have is a deficit in my: heart, ethics, logic, and humanity. So when folks were in trouble... I answered the call within my heart to help out. And the sad part is, I can't even disclose any of it.... I've been marginalized, smeared, persecuted, ridiculed, and so on... I should NEVER wish anyone to undergo what I have. NEVER...

But, I cannot be everyone else, because I am NOT everyone else. I am ME. I MUST be who I am. And, I don't think there is anything wrong at all with what I do. I do art, I do science, I do research, I nurture, I help, I think, I speak... My motives to do so are NOT for fame & glory, and not even for praise, or even a thank you... I do what I do because I MUST be TRUE to who I truly am.

I shouldn't have to justify it either.


So..... here I am. A lady, an artist, a Mom, etc...