The Laws of God, The Laws of Man [Poem] By A. E. Housman

The Laws of God, The Laws of Man

by A. E. Housman (1859-1936)

" I, a stranger and afraid
In a world I never made."

  Weird cryptic, macabre, Edwardian/Victorian poetry....

The laws of God, the laws of man,
He may keep that will and can;
Not I: let God and man decree
Laws for themselves and not for me;
And if my ways are not as theirs
Let them mind their own affairs.
Their deeds I judge and much condemn,
Yet when did I make laws for them?
Please yourselves, say I, and they
Need only look the other way.
But no, they will not; they must still
Wrest their neighbor to their will,
And make me dance as they desire
With jail and gallows and hell-fire.
And how am I to face the odds
Of man’s bedevilment and God’s?
I, a stranger and afraid
In a world I never made.
They will be master, right or wrong;
Though both are foolish, both are strong.
And since, my soul, we cannot fly
To Saturn nor to Mercury,
Keep we must, if keep we can,
These foreign laws of God and man.

C'est la vie

Always frustrating, when your feeling the inspiration and flow, and your work gets interrupted by weather, sudden unexpected tragedy, all hell breaking loose, and so on....

It has been an incredibly stressful year, and it seems each year is even weirder, and worse, than the previous one....

My Foodstamps keep ending up having my applications go missing, and a long list of other things... (long story)

So, my nutrition hasn't been very good... just whatever's left at the local food bank, which isn't much compared to 2013... and more people end up going there than ever...

Aside from that, people frequently judge me as some sort of freak, or insane... when I'm constantly trying to help people, and keep people together...

So...... if it looks like my hair is incredibly thin, and balding, that's because it is... I also suffer from psoriasis. Emphasis on the suffering part.... It is an ugly, hideous skin ailment caused by extreme mental & emotional stress. It is incredibly difficult to treat when you have it on your scalp... I've had it before on other parts of my head, neck, face, and elbows... but treating it with prescription steroids would actually work, and drinking saffron tea also would work... but, once it moved to my scalp around 2010/2011 and became increasingly painful by 2012 it was nearly incurable... but would sometimes vanish & reappear... Right now, I am treating it with Moroccan argan oil, which is THE ONLY thing that actually helps it.

For whatever reason, people seem to think that having rational, and cognitive thoughts, contemplating things logically, and asking legitimate questions about EVERYTHING, makes me insane, and the fact that I do creative things makes me a freak of nature REALLY bothers me... It bothers me that people have an expectation of lies, going through the motions, and speaking ONLY what they want to hear, and being honest, truthful, and dare I say "true to ones self" has made me a constant target for a great deal of many individuals & groups...

Well, I don't care!

The truth is, I'm an artist AND an intellectual, despite both groups HATING each other, and those outside of those circles HATING me DOUBLE for being born of both brain hemispheres.

And, part of that truth is that I am in my mid 30s... I'm a Mom, I do creative things, technological things, human things, and more... and yes, that includes wearing makeup, making things, writing things, expressing things... I'm not ACTUALLY as beautiful as this... it's JUST art.

I'm actually just a plain woman, and no one even likes me much in the state I'm a legal resident of... There are plenty of things I'd RATHER be doing, but, I'm NOT middle class anymore... so, I currently cannot.

Sometimes doing the right thing(s) doesn't make you a well liked person...

I may be broke, living in poverty, and afflicted with medical problems (a list of them) but, I'm STILL a human being...

So... I don't have much, I'm broke, I barely have anything, and I'm grateful what I do have... But, what I don't have is a deficit in my: heart, ethics, logic, and humanity. So when folks were in trouble... I answered the call within my heart to help out. And the sad part is, I can't even disclose any of it.... I've been marginalized, smeared, persecuted, ridiculed, and so on... I should NEVER wish anyone to undergo what I have. NEVER...

But, I cannot be everyone else, because I am NOT everyone else. I am ME. I MUST be who I am. And, I don't think there is anything wrong at all with what I do. I do art, I do science, I do research, I nurture, I help, I think, I speak... My motives to do so are NOT for fame & glory, and not even for praise, or even a thank you... I do what I do because I MUST be TRUE to who I truly am.

I shouldn't have to justify it either.


So..... here I am. A lady, an artist, a Mom, etc...

More Untouched Photos 001

Some more untouched-up photos, most of which I just never got around to publishing.


Photos were shot in October 2013
South Weymouth, MA
South Shore, Greater Boston, New England
Marshall Kändiß The Pyrate

Euro Hardcore Club Rave 01 from BlackUniGryphon on 8tracks Radio.

Want to Photo With Me?

Want to do some Photography with me?

Want to dress up with me?

Want to model for/with me? 

This is a bit experimental for me... so, I'm just kinda putting it out there....



Details:

So, if YOU would like to reach out to me, get in touch with me, maybe we would work something out.

Have a costume? Want me to photograph you?

Contact me, maybe we can work that out....

But, I want to be perfectly CLEAR, you MUST behave professionally, appropriately, composed, courteous, polite. I take my art, and my artistic endeavors VERY seriously.

* I must also point out: I AM NOT A PROSTITUTE!

* I will NOT stand for ANY inappropriate touching, grabbing, comments, gestures, unwanted sexual attention, sexual harassment, etc. You may NOT EVER pressure me for sexual favors etc. End of story. [period]

I generally don't have much money, income, nor a personally owned vehicle of my very own. I also have time restrictions, because I have a child that goes to school weekly from Mon-Fri. And, my spouse is also an obstacle for me to navigate around.

So, if you're respectful to me, I'll be respectful to you. Makes total sense, right?

So, if you WOULD like to get together with me to do some photography, we'd have to work out where, when, how, etc....

I realized times ARE TOUGH (believe me I know, I'm on food stamps) so, if you really DON'T have money to pay for it, perhaps we could work out some kind of beneficially mutual arrangement, still have fun, get something done, and everyone is happy. (And, NO, I'm NOT a Communist.)

If I JUST sat around waiting for folks to just contact me, n throw moneys at me, I'd NEVER get anything done, there'd be NO fun in my life, and I'd NEVER have done ALL OF THIS!

For now, I'm MOSTLY focusing in the Greater Boston Area.

I'm on the South Shore... so, if you're on the North Shore... gosh- I dunno how I would get there... but, we'd have to figure something out.

I am actually originally from The Greater Philadelphia area, and I do still go down there (tho' I wish more frequently), so it's possible for me to meet up with whomever for a potential project in future unknown whenever dates. Who knows? If you are in THAT area go to Dr. Thunder Karaoke in West Philly & South Philly and get to know Pirate Pebbs, also an excellent, National Award winning photographer & artist, and she & I could possibly work something out. (Search them on on FaceBook)

* This is intended for SERIOUS ARTISTIC collaborations, artists, creatives, persons with and education in this subject matter, long periods of study in arts, or consistent self study, true to heart, photography/video, costume making, creative modeling, makeup, expressive personalities, having a serious portfolio or body of work, preferably with some kind of credentials, or a resume of sorts. 
SERIOUS, and seriousness, not frivolous, vain, pointlessness. 
SERIOUS ART.  


Contact me, comment, Tweet me, send me a message on FB.

Let me know, maybe we could work something out.

Reading Glasses (Wide Angle)

Wide angle fisheye lens...